About 5 months ago, life started getting pretty hard, physically at first but then also mentally and emotionally too. I started needing to hang around the house longer and longer in the morning before I could head out to work because, well… to be truthful, I had to go to the bathroom… a lot (number 2)… like 6 or 7 times… and I would frequently need to leave the job I was working on (out in some rich people’s yard) just to go to the bathroom. Very inconvenient. Soon eating became a problem too. I began to need to eat more and more frequently because when I would get hungry I would very quickly get anxious and kind of hyper and weird and irritable and angry and weak, but more and more anything I ate made my stomach really hurt. Then I started having this constant thirst, even drinking close to two gallons of water a day didn’t quench the thirst and the St. Louis heat was really starting to get to me. I started feeling faint frequently while working, sometimes mostly whiting out and needing to sit down. I began seeing a “holistic chiropractor”. She said that I had IBS and and that my pancreas wasn’t working properly. She gave me enzymes and herbs and chiropractic adjustments and acupuncture. She was able to help me with the bathroom troubles (thank god!), but my other symptoms were still there, slowly getting worse. My blood sugar levels were beginning to be more erratic, I couldn’t leave the house for 10 min with out a lunch box full of snacks and a bunch of water. I was all over the place and getting to be tired all of the time and no longer able to work more than a couple hours here and there. Then came the cramps. I started occasionally getting muscle tension and little spasms after physical exertion, but after a while I began to have full blown lower body muscle spasms almost every night, I would have to quickly go grab a banana or some yogurt or whatever and that would usually help, but I was starting to get pretty scared, I would occasionally stumble while walking or my hands would fumble. By this time about all I could do was shuffle around the house in my slippers and robe feeling too weak and too sick to do anything else. I felt like I was going to die, 20 lbs under weight, tired all the time, insomnia, all the symptoms of diabetes, recently diagnosed with osteoporosis (I’m only 30!), muscle spasms and unbearably thirsty, oh yeah… and an unpredictable and explosive temper. It was horrible, I was nearing my demise with no help or answers in sight. Then came the 1st miracle. No, Isha didn’t come to me while I was ascending, but he was probably deftly guiding my internet search when I found out about the importance salt! Thank God for salt! Unrefined sea salt, 1 teaspoon in a gallon of water. Oh my lord… I became giddy and started grinning from ear to ear! My muscles started to relax and I began to feel revived. Whoa, totally weird. Salt? Go figure. Stranger yet, it even made me less thirsty! The next major breakthrough came when I found out that it’s not just women that can get Candida. I had heard of a woman with most of my same symptoms who was diagnosed with Candida yeast overgrowth, but I kind of dismissed the possibility for my self. Anyway, I woke up early one morning with a really sore throat, so I drank a glass of water with grapefruit seed extract in it and went back to bed. When I woke up later not only was there no problem with my throat but better yet, my thirst was almost gone and I didn’t feel the need to constantly swallow my saliva. What a relief! In case you don’t know grapefruit seed extract is great at killing Candida yeast. I immediately went on a “Candida diet” eliminating all sugars including fruit and juice and bread and rice and starchy vegetables. That left bacon and eggs and salads and lentils and lots of nuts. I started to feel better and my energy levels improved a little for a while, but I still needed to eat quite frequently and I would still experience days of extreme tiredness and depression and spontaneous emotional explosions. Then finally came the answers and the explanations that had been missing this whole time. Praise God for my dentist! My dentist was the one who 1st discovered that I have osteoporosis, so he had suggested that I get a hair analysis to find out what was going on. Well the results came in and pretty much explained the entire story of my whole life and every condition I had ever experienced not just physically but mentally and emotionally as well. It tied together the salt and the Candida and the muscle spasms and the exhaustion and the irritability and the anger as well as the frequent illnesses, the allergies, the ADHD and manic depression that I had earlier in life. They explained it all nutritionally. Turns out I have heavy metal poisoning and the metals are screwing with the function of my organs and glands and the levels of vital nutrients in my body. The test showed Lead and Copper off the charts, very high Manganese as well as Cadmium, Aluminum, and good dose of Nickel. In addition to that it showed that I was absorbing virtually no Calcium or Magnesium which explains the osteoporosis. There were deficiencies in other things like zinc and selenium and sodium and potassium as well. The test results also showed that I have ‘adrenal exhaustion’ and low thyroid function – two reasons why I was so tired all the time. The intricate connections and interactions between nutrients and metals in the body and the predictable physical, mental and emotional results of that interplay totally blew my mind! Needless to say I immediately began to follow their nutritional balancing program, which dietarily I had basically already discovered in the form of the Candida diet (nice coincidence). They also suggested that I eat substantially more protein, especially red meat because of the zinc, and they provided me with specific nutritional supplements. Starting day one there was quite a bit of improvement in how I felt and the amount of energy I had. It’s been a little over a month on those supplements, some days are still really hard, but more and more I feel like a human. Sometimes I have very uncomfortable “copper dumps” when copper is being eliminated quickly from my system other times I think I can tell it’s the lead leaving. My research into health and nutrition has been ongoing during this entire process and I have recently re-discovered things I knew about before that are really helping me now such as: bentonite clay (internally), clay baths, coffee enemas, salt water flushes, soil-based organisms, fermented foods, raw milk, raw eggs, cod liver oil… just to name a few. So, I wanted to share all of these crazy details because until I suddenly started getting sick, I had no idea that something was going on under the surface. Most of my problems I had just assumed were “just how I am”. I have been surprised to learn that what I thought was a healthy diet actually compounded many of my problems due to the low protein / high copper content which I wasn’t even aware of. I highly recommend to anyone to get a “hair tissue mineral analysis” from a decent lab because it is like the dip-stick in your engine. I felt great until I didn’t and everyone deserves the chance to avoid suffering before it happens. Though, I must say, I am actually incredibly grateful for this experience even though I thought I was going to die and am now $6,000 in debt and am still not quite strong enough to get back to work. I feel like what I have learned about health is invaluable, and the experience of coming out on the other side of what was a horribly dark night at times is so amazing that I can now say, “it was worth it.”
To me, the second part of this e-mail actually does tie in to the first part, because in the end it has all been about experiencing life, and the experience has allowed me to ‘test my mettle’ (not metal, ha! but I did get those tested too!). What I mean is, I started this year with more faith and ease and joy than I had ever had before, then some potentially life threatening challenges came my way and I’d have to say they nearly buried me (ha! metaphorically and maybe physically too!), but here on the other side is still faith and ease and joy, the experience of God is still simple, and despite the bumps or maybe because of them, I feel more innocently in love with God and the simplicity of the Ascendant than before.
So, where I’m at now is basically I just need to get healthy and strong as quickly as possible so I can start working again, pay off my debt and start saving for the next Impacto. I heard there may be a mini-Impacto or something sometime later this year and I really would love to be there. For all of you who are attending the one that starts in a few days, I will miss you, but I love you and I wish you the most simple of experiences while you are there.
Maharishi, thank you for everything, I have been feeling/thinking about you more in the last few days that I have for a little while – your presence seems to be a very strong and loving pull inward…
Peace to all of you, (especially those who have had the stamina to reach the end of this incredibly long e-mail!)
I LOVE YOU